simple complexity

there has been a request from someone to update my blog regularly.. and there has been comments on how my posts always sounds sad..

but what updates can i have when life is so unhappening recently.. or how happy can my posts be when days spent have been black and sad..

been trying to bury myself in a frenzy of work, school and meetups with friends, in hoping to take my mind off certain issues that i don't wanna be reminded of.. but despite the effort to keep myself occupied all the time, i still can't get those stupid thoughts out of my mind. Especially when the very thought of it hits me every morning upon waking.. thy nightmare is not over..

ask me and i can tell u i don't know how to handle human relations anymore.. with all the endless sessions of mind games.. or with the ever continuing days of mutual avoidance.. the human brain is already a very complex organ.. and yet many things have been made even more complicated by human actions..

i don't want to let all these emotions get to me..
but somehow its affecting me really badly..
i can't seem to concentrate during classes..
i can't seem to concentrate at work..

and i don't want to slip into depression..