some thoughts

if u were to ask me how's life at work for the past few months.. i have actually come up with this equation..

LLWA = stressed + demoralized + immunized + isolated

call this lame if you want to.. but i really think these 4 words is enough to summarise life at work nowadays..

anyway just wanna say a word of thank you to people who had given me their support in one way or another over the past few days..

to mel - for waiting for me to knock off and taking train home tgt. though it was a meetup for barely an hr.. ur words of encouragements somehow did help.

to mingxin - for posting those comments on my blog. know u are a frequent reader. haha. thanks for reminding me to be positive.

to joe n jenny - though u guys wont be reading this anyway. just wanna say dat at least a chat over the phone and meetups over supper/breakfast had helped too.

to mummy - just a sms was enough to touch my heart.

things hadn't been exactly going smooth.. and i'm not so sure when will it be over..
but i really think i have matured quite a bit in terms of thinking thru all these happenings..
which might not be such a bad thing after all..

insignificant me

I've been trying to pull myself away
And i wondered if you have noticed
Maybe my presence has always been too insignificant to be felt
Or maybe i'm just one of the many thousands passing chapters in your life

I'm shocked by the similarities borne between us
Even though many a times i reminded myself not to get carried away

Just when everything seems so promising
Things begin to fall apart at the same time

Maybe I shouldn't be thinking too much
Cos maybe there was nothing much to begin with in the first place

But nevertheless, it still hurts..

redundancy

the feel of redundancy is really getting to me. cutting in emotionally too. seriously wondering why my life seems to be getting topsy turvy recently.. when bits and pieces start to fall apart.. until such a point when i'm not so sure if i can take it anymore.. i can assure you i'm not being over sensitive here.. neither am i being paranoid nor thinking too much. i guess there's some truth to the saying "always trust a woman's intuition".. my sixth sense can be rather accurate at times..

maybe its just time to search for a greener pasture.. when my comfort zone doesn't seem as comfortable as before.. when things will never be the same again..

things have changed. i needa learn to accept it though it's going to be difficult.

i'm sick and tired of putting on a brave front. i have my weak points too.
after all, i'm still a girl.

i have my pride and dignity too.

Holidays to a close

The past 4 months seemed to have passed within the blink of an eye. And it is indeed a very happening school holiday that i had. So eventful to such a stage that it seems so happening than anything else dat i had experienced in the past 23 years.

May/June:

• transferred from counter to boutique
• had herpes zoster and was on mc for 11 days

July

• club like there's no tomorrow (clubbing became our weekly event)
• went on Genting /KL trip (some things started to change thereafter)
• saw the resignation of some pple

August

• many late nights out
  
• 27 aug was a day i dread to remember.. first time i drank till i puke (believe me, i myself find it disgusting).. my phone dropped inside the toilet bowl (400 over inbox msgs gone). Lost 1 side of my earring again etc..
  

September

• i failed econs. damn!
  
• nora and me stopped talking.
• frankie resigned. last day 18 Sept '08.
  

Adieu, dear mentor!

the sudden resignation of frankie has left me with much thoughts.. was brought to realization of how much i've learnt over the past few years.. it's indeed true how he always mention dat i'm the only staff who has worked under him for the longest time...

• isetan tampines
• seiyu j8 (2 mths)
• og orchard point
• og people's park
• seiyu bugis
• og albert
• isetan scotts girls
• taka girls
• metro woodlands (3 mths)
  
• ladies wisma atria

it's only during the 5 months at j8 and woodlands dat i didn't get to work with him..

through the past 4 yrs, he's been known for someone whom

• you know will be there when help is needed
• many at times taught me how to view things from another perspective
• has faith in me when at times i don't even have confidence in myself
• given me lots of opportunities
• i've gotten umpteen scoldings from, though it may have been unpleasant, but i've come to terms dat it's for a good cause
• taught me some of the moral values of life

it's always true how people learn to appreciate things only when they're gone..

but good things always have to come to an end..

there are times where we just need to learn to accept things the way they are..

And so hereby, i'll like to thank my dear mentor for providing me with such a great learning experience. All the best to you for your future endeavours!

emo...

i let my emotions got the better of me . . .